Life is crazy in the sense that you don’t know what you don’t know until you know it. If anyone would have told me in my 20s that life would be as interesting and intriguing as it’s been thus far I would’ve cussed them down and called them all kinds of liars. I’m constantly in awe of life and the ebs and flows of it. It really is and can be a beautiful disaster
One thing that life has taught me and I’ve clung to so much in more recent years is how much of a grasp you have to have on yourself in this life because society and people will try to box you in based on their perceptions, beliefs and norms. If you can’t stand firm and convicted in who you are you’ll be exactly who they tell you should be and you’ll be miserable constantly trying to conform and seek acceptance.
If you know me in person you know that I’ve always been a spicy person, very confident and secure in who I am. I’m very grateful to my mother for instilling a deep sense of self-esteem in me that has carried me and the only time it ever wavered was when I was in bad company of people who were threatened by my self-assuredness and confidence and set out to humble me and break my spirit. I’m glad that I recognized those attempts and saved myself from it.
I had an experience not too long ago that jarred me and it triggered an issue within myself that I’ve always worked really hard to master and I have to admit that for a few days I was kinda funky about it and hyper focused on the exchange until I had a deep talk with myself and reminded myself to, no matter what, stay true to who I am as a person. I have to live in and with my body so I can’t internalize anything anyone else says as my reality because I know who the hell I am and what works for me.
You have to take everything and all outside noise with a grain of salt if you want to be successful at life. I’m constantly asking myself “what if I don’t want to? Or who says I have to? Who made the rules that say that I have to live a certain way and do things in accordance to what society says I should?
What I’ve been doing and how I’ve been doing it has worked for me for a long time. I’ve kept myself alive on my own for this long and that should count for something
After about a day my feelings about the situation subsided and I was proud of myself because I didn’t let the opinion of someone whom I don’t know to cloud the perception I have of myself. I know exactly who I am and how I operate and people hate that and they really don’t understand it.
I love that my life confuses people. I intend to keep it that way. I intend to always reject anything and anyone who might try to contain me or limit my soul. I won’t live by societal roles and expectations nor will I follow a traditional path. I vow to always live from my heart and be totally comfortable living outside of a comfort zone.
I’ll listen to my inner guide, continue to be carefree but also intentional, not easily intimidated,bold and non judgmental while also forging forward on my own path while marching to the beat of my own drum
And people will cope
Introverted and anti-social 